Bad News

Just got the news, an uncle of mine has just died of heart attack this afternoon. I can't bear the thoughts of thinking about my cousin, of what he's feeling right now. If only I'm in Kedah right now...

It has been such a long time since I last seen him, now that I realized of it. He's been such a good man to my family, and me in particular. And I can still remember my childhood that were much spent on his house playing with my cousin. It is so weird to think now that he's no longer here with us, it just seems so absurd

Ya Rabbi, people dies. I can feel it now, people are dying everyday. Lots and lots of people from my childhood are gone now, and suddenly I feels empty without them in my life. Yet I was the one that became so occupied with life that I didn't take time to visit them and get acquainted with them and be like the old times. Oh well, no use thinking about it now

I'm worried about my cousin. Though he's older than me, and in iman-term he's better educated than me, I'm worried of his reaction. Once, another cousin of mine also lost his dad, and he just... went overboard as he can't control his emotion. I'm just worried, I can't bear another sad story surrounding my family, as if the current one is not enough yet

Ya Allah, please let my mom and my dad lives for a little while longer. I don't know what will happen to me should I lose them, particularly at this stage of my life...

Al-Fatihah...