Tagged, as in tagged, not the social network

Tagged, by no other than Adibah LaLa!

Oh, shut, I suck at this. But oh, wth jelaa...

1. What is the relationship of you and him/her?

-she's my junior in MJSC Beseri

2. Your impressions towards him/her.

-brilliant young lady, but often got herself in an unnecessary situation, love that is

3. The most memorable things he/she had done for you.

when I first got to know her, she was a very good listener, though now, huh, its a reversed role :P, nyway I'm better off as a listener anyway

5. If he/she become your lover, you will..

-sheesh, fate sure has a funny way of weaving its thread. nahh, she's like a younger sister that I never have to me

6. If he/she become your enemy, you will...

-hate myself for letting it become so, Nauzubillahiminzalik...

7. If he/she become your lover, he/she has to improve on his/her

-entahlaa~~~

8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason is...

-how should I know dude...

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is

-tell her, get a life lah, its more than just a cinta monyet semata-mata

10. The overall impression of him/her is...
-she's darker than black. hahah, joking. but she really likes black , elegant as she said it

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?

-either i'm real snobbish, if they are strangers, or a screaming monkey that can't just shut his bottom up, if they are a really close friends. or just somebody's somebody, if we aren't that close

12. The character of you for yourself is?

-lone wolf, :P


13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?

-emo-maniacal


14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?

-Prophet Muhammad pbuh, tht's too much of asking, but still I want to try :)


15. For the people who likes you, say something to them

-I liked you too, but I don't know how to say it

16. 8 people to tag:
- pok deng (this one just for fun, I know he won't do it XDXDXD)
- nadiah (lets see whether she will do it :P)
- pajid (I just barely know her, but hey, be glad I chose ya :) hehe)
- khairil hilmi (woit, tuka nama aku buh elok2!!!)
- nasiha (the same as pajid, I just barely know her, lets see)
- Pak Din (malas update lah budak nih)
- Amri (wat2, jgn x wat plak ngeh2...)
- Wawa (hidupkah lg kamu? wawa, update~~~)

17. who is no. 2 having a relationship with?
-how should i know? but for the sake of the question, nobody lah kot~~

18. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
-if you consider the name, would it be a male? female she is

19. If no. 7 and no. 8 were together, would it be a good thing?
-woahh~~ can't even think of the possibilities

20. How about no. 5 and 6?
-same course... uhh no lah kot

21. What is no. 1 studying about?
-can't remember, plus he's real secretive

22. Is no. 4 single?
-nope, don't even think about it

23. Say something about no. 2.
-she's a great poet, really. go visit her sometimes

There you go, sealed, signed and delivered. Sorry ehh Diba, got caught up trying to do this one. For the tagged one, if you don't want to do this one, I won't mind, its just for fun you know?

Shah Alam malam nih, lambat betul lah...

Teacher Teacher

Who said that being a teacher is easy? Who said that you can just stroll into one class and calmly teach a class-full of every possible Tom, Dick and Harry that each have a different traits nurtured since birth to annoy every teacher they will ever meet?

Okay, just some bunch of students that you have never seen before, and they stare deep into your soul

Still, it won't make any difference on how you are going to face them all, especially it is your first time. Believe me, you will shake, you will tremble, you will want to cry and call out for mommy, you will want to just run out of the room and into an unknown land somewhere. Such is the scenario of facing a class day to day that our teachers face. Remind me to say thank you to them next time

Finally, one assignment done. Wonder when I'll be doing the others ehh?

Trima kasih banyak ya Teacher Ida :)

Missing You

I just barely missed her...

If only I would've waited for a moment longer, as one says that's all what it takes, or if only I would've woke up earlier, and it will be just perfect

Until we meet again, but I'm already missing you, truly

Rindu rumah, rindu Shah Alam. Kepala ku melayang-layang dibuai perasaan

What I am in Death Note

What Death Note Character Are You?
Hosted By theOtaku.com: Anime

Ohh just for fun, you know? I was expecting some Kira in me to appeal the most in my personalities, but I guess I'm the calm, thoughtful, misunderstood, determined, confident, kind-hearted, and different L

Yeah, right

But hey, I'm also a sweet things addict like him too. I could easily skip a lunch after indulging myself into a full piece of Mars Bar, and won't be needing rice anymore, which is my kind of staple food being a Kedahan. I also would've make it two, and I can and will last the whole day :P

Kenapa ehh, hari amanat dekan tuh aku sembang yg amat bnyk sngt, dgn budak pompuan plak tuh?

Way Back Into Love

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to she'd some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I wanna do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!

Oh hey, my usual post whenever I feel lost without the words to portrays of my feeling to the world, and I would resort to music and lyrics to see through my own soul. Enough crap, today this is the song I would quote in my blog, so take a guess what I'm feeling now

Yet, I still haven't seen the actual movies yet, which I can't remember when it was released. But like I have seen all the movies that I wanted to see. A Walk To Remember, Dead Poets Society, The Bucket List, and all the good stuff, still haven't been able to achieve the luxury of downloading them. Oh well, gotta be patient more

Just recently watched Strange Wilderness. Awesome

Baru dapat elaun of abt 500 ringgit. Shoppin' dude...

Don't Read, You'll Hate Me

I hate myself. I really hate myself. Why can't I ever do anything right? Whatever that I'm trying to do, it will always have a negative effect somehow. And when I do try to change, things just have to go against my way, leaving me lost and confused over my own will and resolution. Sometimes, I just wonder why things just have to happen like it is, and whether perhaps I'm forever bound to be this one person who can never change, and stuck being a worthless person like I am yesterday

I tried hard to change, and it really means something to me to even start doing it. Never in my life before that I had the courage nor the chance nor the want to change myself for the better. One of my weaknesses is that I'm really shy and socially aloof. I can never get really along with people that I barely know of, though I'm real close with people that I've really get attached to. It is not that I put up a fake persona in front of others or am a bitchy arrogant person, but it's just a simple fact; I'm really shy with people that I don't know, especially the girls

So I tried to change. I started to mingle myself with strangers that I always have goosebumps talking with. Still, I still limits myself to a comfort zone meaning that I only have the guts to strike a conversation with people that I'm connected to only, namely same class, same groups etc. But then again, it has been always like that, with only a little different in the way that I became less picky in the terms of the person I feel comfortable talking to

As fate have it, one night I pushed myself out of the comfort zone, and it was a perfect setting

It was late one night and though my class the next day will be very early, something kept me awake until it was subuh. And as so it happened, Azim was around and by chance he took with him his laptop and his broadband, leaving me free to connect to the web. Not missing the oppurtunity, I went browsing around, either just through Google, Blogspot, Friendster, stuff, and suddenly, I found out that someone else was also online during that time. Normally, knowing that she is neither from my class nor from a similar group whatsoever, though before we did have a run together in a group before, I was thinking over and over again of whether I should get out of my comfort zone and say hi to her

I did just that, considering that she had previously acknowledged me before using the Friendster, so perhaps I won't face the consequences of rejection that I fear from people almost all of the time before. So yeah, I put up a brave front and started chatting with her. I was surprised myself at how easily I find the words to converse with her, for I've never even talked to her before. We keep on going on and on and on, until it was subuh already. Though we didn't talk much, it felt like I was getting to know more of her, and I was finally getting out of the comfort zone

The next few hours was the ultimatum for what had already happened and my determination to change myself. I found her afterwards for sometime in the afternoon when all of my class was over and hers too. It was raining... rain had always been a catalyst for a life-changing moments in my life, and that day the rain continued to play its part. The scene was the bus-stop, she arrived earlier with many of her own classmates. I was walking alone in the rain, and when I arrived there, I must've been a mess. She recognized me and said something and my reply was a lame one, a short-sentenced answer I always give people, the strangers

In the bus, I was sitting down, she was standing among the crowds. I kept my head down, ignoring her and keeping to myself. When we reached our destinations, we went down, and from there I can already sense the coldness emanating from her presence. She then got into the bus that will take her to her college, and I took one glance at her. She countered with a somehow distant look, and that makes things clear for me. It was all my mistake, again, it was my mistakes, there's no denying that. Once again, I've let my own shyness took over me again and placed a gap between me and others again

People who has known me before will say that I was always the quiet one, that I rarely opens my mouth at all. I wonder if any might read that as I'm being an arrogant bastard that won't talk to others, and perhaps is true after all, I mean look at me. When I do talk to strangers, its just because they said something to me first. Such is my mentality, that it had stuck with me ever since I could remember

And it will continue to be so. I will always be the quiet one that only speaks to others when it is necessary, because I'm just so painfully shy. And as for her, I should've known better. With many old friends that have been avoiding me now, I guess that this me just won't make it to be anybody's friend. Since Farah left me for good a year and a half ago, I totally lost someone that I can vent my frustration to other than my own family, which I can never talk about this to them. I'll be alone walking to my destination, but I won't mind. I just can't

Until we meet again, with my head down and missing all of what we could've achieved together as friends...

Aku memang anak mak, aku rindu mak aku sekarang. Bless the Chinese, untuk kerana cuti depa aku dapat balik rumah dan lari dari semua ni dan lupakan segala-galanya...

Of The Palestinians

I got a message from my oldest sister yesterday which read like this, leader of the Hizbullah Syd Hassan Nasrallah had asked for the whole community of Muslims to read Al-Fath verse 26-27 and Yunus verse 85, 86 and 88 tonight so that the israelis will fall down. I did my part somehow by reciting the verse late that night in the same hope that the israelis will be crushed down and save the ever suffering Palestinians

But I can't help wondering, is it enough coming from my part?

If it were to fate that my sister didn't send me the message that night, perhaps I would've been again ignorant of the current situation and continued to mull over insignificant things in my life such as the problem of adapting to my new class. Of course I'd heard of the news on the TV on how the Gaza strip are being ruthlessly attacked right now, but really, until the message, back then I just don't give a damn

I won't elaborate on the current issues of the Palestinians or the reasons why we as both Muslim and Malaysians should help them as almost everybody are learned enough to understand it by themselves. I'm just posting this here post as a reminder of myself that I should have done more for Islam. Then I decided that I could have perhaps read on to other people's blog to see their opinion on the situation. And when I do read the other's blog, I get ashamed of their superior writing skills and deeper profound knowledge on Islam and the world itself, whereas here I am, troubled by trivial matters such as... I'm just too ashamed to write it out. Seeing them work hard to somehow save the Palestinian, through more than just a simple prayer by researching deeply into the manner and write something about it...

Try reading this one and perhaps you will understand

I guess its time to change eh? Time to read more subtle and informational stuff, not just Kreko or Gempak as I usually read, but also on the current news and articles, I have to be alert. I shall no longer be a frog under the coconut shell and just be contented with all the luxury that I have and lead a simple life. After all, isn't an informative and well-informed students is what were our ancestors were trying to produce in hope for a better Malaysian future aite? As a student myself, it is time to heed the call now and find my true calling

Have you heard of the news? The israelis are now using phosphorus-based projectiles to raid Gaza in a strategy known as shake-and-burn where the explosives burns a building and forces the people inside it to leave the building and be open to be killed by the damn israelis. Recently, a truck full of Palestinian women and children were hit with such monstrosity that all of them were killed and even the metal part of the truck were melted and blown to smithereens. Horrible isn't it...

Imagine that such tragedy would ever happen in Malaysia, Nauzubillahhiminzalik...

Masa untuk berubah, masa untuk buat kawan baru. Hohoiii...

Blurbs

I'm never much of a resolution man, like, there's no just reason for us to set a resolution when it is new year when they all keep saying that the time to change is now. Ahah, whatever jelaa

But today, I'm starting a new resolution, be it my new year's resolution or 4th of January resolution. I'm gonna buy a new camera by the end of this semester. I will forget about buying a new latest cellphone to replace the old one, as the thing I'm so irritated is that it contains so many precious picture. So I will keep using the 'old' new cellphone of mine and finally buy myself a camera at last, heh, it's been my long time wish after all

So yuh, gotta start spending less and less money on food :P

Aku masuk kelas B, hampeh betul