Ramadan

Oh oh, Ramadan is already dawning upon us. Fasting month will soon ensue and we will be starving and praying and improving our health and body figure alike like hell. Oh well, same as the last two years, I'll be fasting without the presence of my beloved family and my mum's cooking. But still, it will be fun to break fast with friends of Meranti College, what with the variety of food available around Seksyen 2 Shah Alam, and the colourful characters around here, it'll be a buzz

Well, it'll be the first for me to break fast, university style. I'm still missing to break at my own home, complete with all of my sisters and brother with their childrens around, and to break fast with my fellow MRSM Beseri batch. Oh yeah, I miss those guys. It was a truly special feeling to break fast with all of them inside the huge dining hall (okay, maybe not that huge). And after all, last year was the last time I could feel all these feeling again, and after this, there will be no more break fast as special as this one

Well, as they say, it only gets easier if we actually spend time doing it. So calming my anxious heart, I started preparing for the Ramadan in this peculiar year. But the truth is, I still can't catch a glimpse of fasting in a here as a university student. Where shall I eat, what shall I eat, who should I eat with. Now I say, being 18 and independent is not easy as it seems to be

Oh well, what's the use of the Internet if we won't use it to increase our knowledge on Ramadan itself. I've been surfing a bit on Ramadan, and not much came up. Its kinda hard to find info on certain topics, and it just sucks, but I do found some interesting stuff on Ramadan, such as the fadhilats of Ramadan and some food tips.

Happy belated Ramadan. I found this phrase while surfing the net, which I have never heard of before. But still, happy belated Ramadan anyway

Halfway Home by Jason Mraz

I used to walk along the opposite side of the road
and made others get out of my way
I used to think I could sit and wait for the times
but they wont come until I meet them halfway

I'm halfway home and I'm on my own
I'm halfway there and I don't care, I don't mind
I plan to leave here after supper time
that's when traffic is light, all I need is a sign
and I'll be alright. I'll be fine

I used to think that i could just sleep and then I'd dream
And everything it would come to me
Until I woke one day without anything to eat
Lying on the opposite side of the street

I'm halfway home and I'm still out on my own
I'm halfway there and I don't care, I don't mind
Because it ain't my time to stay or sayÉ
I'll never lay down.

I used to think that I could just sit and wait for the time
But I know I gotta meet them halfway

I'm halfway home I tried home running with the flow
I'm halfway there. Ain't it funny how everybody seems to care
I planned to get there around supper time
their serving up bread and wine
All I needed was a sign and I'll be alright.
I'll be fine.

Guess I'm what they call homesick, and after all this years only now that it hits me. Oh whatever jela...

Home by Michael Buble

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Oh I'm missing home, really missing it. I think the rain's to blame here. I just can't help but just too feel emotional when its raining outside and the breeze hits you in the face. You get pretty sleepy, you start imagining the bed and the pillow, and you just can't concentrate on life anymore, your mind just fly away. Most of the time, I just see home

Now that I start to pay for the food myself again, I begin appreciating my mum's cooking again. What the hell do I care if I get fat just because I won't stop eating, as long as it mum's

Merdeka

It's almost Independence Day now. As the dawn of Freedom rise upon us, I somehow felt a little bit different this year. Merdeka has totally change somehow. As I said countless times before, it sucks

For the overall review of what Merdeka is all about this year, I'll let somebody talk about it, somebody wise and experienced, and used to be our great leader. And oh, don't hate me for choosing him as my reference, I know there's people out there who detests him, but I value his words more than his other vices or virtues. Just for the record, this why I fucking hates politics...

For so long I had been taught to appreciate Merdeka and to celebrate it with full enthusiasm. But now, with so much happening in the current politics of Malaysia, what are we gonna teach the children now that almost everyone have their own doubt with their own leaders, how are we gonna them to respect the elderly when the elderly act worse than a spoilt kid could?

Oh well, I guess I'll be celebrating Merdeka this year just like I did last year. Nothing much has changed for me, for all that matter. For one who hates politics, he just need his family and friends to get on with his life and why not?

The Ball Still Lives

The ball still lives, and so do my life. Gotta run people :-)

It started raining. Oh gosh...

Smile Baby

There she is, standing there as though she is waiting for someone. For instance, I took a glance at her lovely face, but then I looked away. Somehow, rather unusually, I turn my head to look at her again, and there she was, smiling at me, a total stranger that could been a total pervert or a total messed up freak. But I just looked away again, rather rudely, instead of smiling back at her

I guess that's one of my main problem. I hardly smiles at stranger, nevertheless of their warm attitude towards me. I usually only smiles at person that I know or at the elderly, but other than that, hello Mr Stoneface

That really sucks, though it may not seems so at first glance

Because, I missed out on a lot of occasion. Trust me, if you just don't smile enough, certain life's gift will slip away from your hand. Lets take this persona named Ariff here for example. Sometimes through the course of his ever wandering life, he is sometimes greeted by some very beautiful girls with an equally beautiful smiles. But then he just looks away, either greatly flustered or thinking that he doesn't deserve such a beautiful smile, as he believes that himself is an ugly no-looker

While those girls was just being polite, or just want to befriend him, but either way, its a lost cause for Ariff as he refused to smile back at them for the reason mentioned before

Well now, lets forget about Ariff. From my experiences, smiles does wonder in many aspects of life. For example, a simple and honest smile can land you an offer of a discount, it might get you in front of a queue, it may just set you up with the life partner you have ever been looking for. And as for the girls, it make them a hundred-fold better looking, nevertheless of how the girl looks like, attractive or ugly

Lesson learnt, smile makes your life better in some way you can never imagine

Well, for old time's sake, perhaps I shall write a poem here, though I've given up on poetry some time ago because of some painful relationship. After all, I need to embrace poetry again next year as it is included in the course I'm taking right now and I'm gonna learn more about it (is it?). Ah well, here goes nothing...

Smile baby
Don't fret, cos life sucks
Smile baby
Though they shout bitching at you
Smile baby
Even though nobody is looking
Smile baby
Wipe away that tears
Smile baby
Don't let it get the best of you
And smile baby
Even if that's the only thing you can do
Cos when you smile, baby
You make me smile, too
And it feels great, baby, so let us smile
And say "Get lost, suckers!", to them
Walk away, hand-to-hand, with a smile on our face

I can never forget that beautiful smile of her. Even though I'm just another customer of the shop, her smile reflects of a warm feeling and true honesty towards me. Sucks though that I just acted macho-like and didn't even ask for her phone number even as she continued to have a little chit-chat with me as there is no one else there

Owh shit, I find myself can't sleep without dreaming of her smile

WHAT?!!!

Numero Uno
Almost nobody's home. My sis Annies is going to KL with her son aka my partner-in-crime Umarrr, so no point staying at her house this holiday. Kak Yu and Kak Ti is also not coming here,which means no battalion of noisy kids marching down here in Jitra, so no point staying in my house. Going out, urmmm... I don't think so...

Numero Dos
Lee Chong Wei failed to grab that elusive gold medal for Malaysia. Well, that sucks, but he tried though. Even under the tutelage of the great Misbun Sidek, Lin Dan proves to be such a formidable opponent. Congrats anyway :)

Numero Tres
I'm fat. No, rephrasing that one... I'm getting fatter by the every minutes passing by in my home. Not only that I ditched going to MKP to play basketball, I also picked up the habit of watching movies 24 hours since nobody is back home to even bother. Soon, I'm gonna look like the legendary Fat Chocobo, what with all the yellow feathers and stuff... Okay, now that's plain ridiculous

When will the holidays end eh? I was looking forwards for the holidays before, so that I can slow down the momentum of university's life and take a little break. But a little break is a little too much for me, as it seems after a day or two of holiday. I do love my mum's cooking, but its the mum's cooking that will turn me into a blob of fat and so damn immobile and gross looking...

Uhh, I don't wanna look like a blob of fat. I'm a virgin, for god's sake... :P

For The Fan Of Both Matchbox 20 And Cats

Oh well, I had finished my assignment that's been sucking out all of my fun and energy from my body before. But hey, finishing them means that I can enjoy myself now aite?

Instead of going out with my mates, I decided to hang around in the cybercafe and browse around blogs and youtube. Guess what did I came across to? Care to watch the video I uploaded up here to know what am I talking about here.

I guess I'm back in love with the Matchbox 20, and Counting Crows too. It seems that whenever that I feels sad, I can resort to listening to these guys and feel rejuvenated again. Emo-killer is rock, I must say :P

Shy That Way - Jason Mraz and Tristan Prettyman

you know your stunning
absolutely stunning
and I'm running always running

and now I'm crying
you know only cause I'm caring
and if you were more daring maybe you'd stop staring
and come over and talk to me
and tell me about how you've been waiting patiently
and how you tried but I just turned away
and I'll say, "yeah well you know, I'm shy that way"

shy that way
shy that way
maybe I'm shy that way

you know she's stunning
she's absolutely stunning
but she's always running
but ill catch up to her...

the way she keeps her distance
keepin my interest
so ill keep it consistent

maybe someday, someway, somehow, sometime
we'll get together and we'll break it down
and I'll ask, "why you gotta be so shy, why you gotta be that way?"
well maybe, baby, I like it that way

shy that way
maybe I, like it shy that way
maybe I love you so shy that way

Ok, I'm shy that way...

there's always too much talking
and I wanna just keep walking
and I keep staring, baby, keep staring
though I may not know the right things to say
I'll get it out to you one day

shy that way
shy that way

do you like it? do you like it when I'm shy
yes I like it, yes I like it, when your shy

shy that way

Oh yeah I like you shy that way, because I'm shy that way. I'm always shy with the girls, the only way I could ever get close to them is to overcome this overwhelming shyness...

Ok, I'm shy that way, hehe

Silent Mode, Exam Mode On

I guess its back to solitary life, back to basic and books (pergh!). Just holding out for one more week until holidays, then I can get back to what I want to do, and back here

Ariff, peace out!

The Lost Pictures

Years passed by, I've witnessed many things, watched many events, felt many emotions, yet I haven't realized one thing that I wanted to do the most during those times, which is to snap pictures! And now the regret's haunting me, those minutes passing by without me snapping pics like a crazed freak and feeling contented with myself. What a waste, really.

The Nokia 6120 Classic's camera is not good enough. The darn Picasa on my laptop is not good enough. I need a DSC-T300 Cyber-Shot Digital Still camera. I need the best Photoshop, or whatever shit they are using to edit pics nowadays. Ahakz poyo je promote handphone sendiri :P
I still feel grateful though. I'm lucky enough to still have friends that I can look upon to, and their ugly faces is more than enough needed to reminisce on the good old memories. About my pic-snapping tendencies, well, I can still wait till I got a job myself, and own the camera with my very own money. Entahla bila hmm...

But until then, anybody kind enough to sponsor a camera to me??? Bleh ke? Plzzz...

August

Happy anniversary for me August this year, as August marks the month I'm free from someone's drowning incessant talk and needless attention. No more weekend call, no more hassling to meet each other. The time I finally be able to focus on my SPM last year, and saved my money on education rather than just spending it on some useless stuff. Me ditching Farah, and I'm still not over it actually

Don't even guess what the paragraph is suggesting, but if you want to, be my guest. The thing that I want to point here is the upcoming Independence Day, which coincidentally falls on the same month of August. It also suggest of a common theme, which is freedom. Seems like August is truly the month of freedom, as perceived by the whole Malaysia itself, and by me, in a way that only I can fathom and feel. Maybe this year, I'll truly forget about her and get on with life

I've been real busy of lately. So I was kind of expecting for the holiday this 31st of August, all like the previous years of being a school kid. Mind that, I'm a university student now. Hmm... I can still feel excited abut holidays right?

Mates Forever

When hardship falls upon you, you may be broken inside. You find yourself so weakened that you can't even breath, let alone stand on your own feet. That's when the vision of your loving family flashes upon you, but the hard truth hits you, they are not here...

That's when you suddenly you are not alone. The least expected help came upon you, in the form of some strangers you are living with them currently. Suddenly you realize that they are not just a strangers, but they are the true friends that stands beside you...

Aku sayang depa
Selagi hayat di kandung badan
Selagi tuh la aku akan menghargai persahabatan ini
Ya Allah, berkatilah kami semua...

Dari kiri: Apek, aku sendiri, Helmy, Boy, and Wan

Dampened Ego

Never had before I found myself facing so many interesting scenarios in life, yet I found myself standing cold in front of it. I couldn't express myself, I kept fooling myself, and in the end, I lost something that could've been precious to me.

Suddenly I felt blank in front of the Create Post page everytime I thought of something to write. Maybe this is a good thing. For once, I could just experience life, and go through it without having to think on how to immortalize it by either writing a journal or posting a blogpost. Study also got better attention from me, which is very crucial at the moment.

Again, I take a break from blogging. If I kept doing this I maybe will somehow shun myself from anymore blogging. Huhhhh... I hope not

Sayonara, Dear Friend

I totally had a real bad day then. Started from Friday morning where I left my book in the college and had to borrow a friend's motorbike to get it, got my leg crushed by the bus' door, and I'm lost on the way to my sister's house. Exaggeration number one, I almost lost my life.

Huuh, what a loser-way-of-thinking. Today's not suppose to be the day I moan about life's demeanor, but it is the day that I, alongside my other group mates to cherish one of our friend in our group, which is Ezalia. She got offer to continue her study from IPG, which mean she will be able to go to oversea, namely Australia. We all went to McD for the farewell party, and she insisted on paying us all.

How can I be so miserable while others are sad at the moment? I can see how Zalia feels very sad about leaving all her friends behind, the way she was carrying herself that day. We all had fun, yet somehow I can see that hard expression on Zalia's face eventhough she's putting such a jovial face. The same goes to Helmi, who was her former classmate before, I think. And all of them, however happy-go-lucky they may seem and act that day, I just knew they all felt the same way.

Good luck, you. The chances don't come around everytime, Australia and all. And thanks for being so nice to me, you still went over and talked to me, eventhough I just kept to myself and always hoping for the worst. With a bit of your help, I lighted up a bit and loosened up with people and socialize better. Ahh, it is so damn hard to find a good friend like you.

I had a real bad day then. I almost went to succumb to self-pitying again, when I stopped doing that for Zalia's sake. And after the day ended, I felt relieved for doing that. Alhamdulillah, road to positiveness is going smoothly for me :)