Wordless Wednesday, eh?

My sister Annies and her son Umar

They're always together, in whatever they do. Hardly ever got separated other than during school time, they are pretty much inseparable. Can you imagine, when Umar was away to his dad's kampung without my sis, he won't ever talk to my sister even when he misses her terribly. He would go into this merajuk state, and totally ignore my sis, only to cry and hug my sister without letting go when he comes back

I don't know why my sister won't have another child when Umar is already nearing 7 years old, but I know of better than asking, given how much my family like to keep secrets away from me. I think I know why, but it doesn't matter, as I just wish that they are happy, the both of them. Especially Umar, he's still young and innocent

Let Them Laugh, Let Them Frown

I'm sentimental
So I walk in the rain
I've got some habits
Even I can't explain
I go to the corner
I end up in Spain
Why try to change me now

I sit and daydream
I've got daydreams galore
Cigarette ashes
There they go on the floor
I go away weekends
Leave my keys in the door
Why try to change me now

Why can't I be more conventional
People talk
And they stare
So I try
But that can't be
Cuz I can't see
My strange little world
Just go passing me by

So let people wonder
Let 'em laugh
Let 'em frown
You know I'll love you
Till the moon's upside down
Don't you remember
I was always your clown
Why try to change me now

Don't you remember
I was always your clown
Why try to change me
Why would you want to change me
Why try to change me now

I think I know better now. It's not that I'm emo as they would call it, but the truth is that I'm an angry man. I'm easily angered even by the smallest thing and the littlest provocation, and I really tend to do stupid things in my spite which I always come to regret later on. I live my life with lots of regret and anger mixed in a very unsettling mix of personality, and I hate myself that way. In a way, I hate him a lot because he is always angry and shouts a lot in the house, and in effect, by hating him deeply I ended up becoming like him

A friend of mine pulled a very nasty prank on me. Even though I had my own doubt that it was him all along, I exploded still when I found out in the end. If you happened to have a link to my Facebook and Twitter, you'll find out just how mad I was and the amount of cursive words I threw in my spite. Of course, I ended up regretting it, and I know people will just make it easier for themselves to label me as emo and all

I just wanted him to know, beneath all that anger and cursing, I was deeply hurt. I won't say this directly to him, as I didn't directed all the cursing at him, but I really needed someone to know that I'm really hurt. If you're gonna say that I'm overreacting over some stupid prank, then fine

Ps: People suffering from aphasia, a loss of the ability to understand words, are significantly better at detecting lies than normal people